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My boyfriend is 24 and I am 22. We have been dadang for about 7 and a half years now and we have been through hell and back. He used to be veyasgly and emotionally abkpsve towards me. He used to becdzcle me, call me stupid, and inichvuete my feelings evrry time I brvbfht up something he did that upyet me. However, this was in the early stages of our relationship. We were young and still maturing and neither of us recognized it as abuse. I divrвЂ™t even know that emotional abuse was a thing unhil I started refjrng about it. He called it towgh love and I always thought I deserved it beawxse he was alqoys so good at convincing me that things were my fault. Things got so bad to a point whgre I developed an eating disorder, dewhplahnn, and a hatit of self mubnstdomn. I found an article about empbcbaal abuse and he fit the deuijibpnon of an embwtlsal abuser and I called him out on it. The older I got, the more mapjre I got and starting realizing my self worth and I started to stand up for myself more. Evgry time we fowyht and I felt like he was being abusive, I would always call him out on it. I doiвЂ™t want to make him out to be a bad guy because heвЂ™s really not. HeвЂ™s the most loyvng person I know and I love him back just as much whxch is why I decided to styck it out with him through the years instead of just leaving. I know he fewls bad about it because heвЂ™s told me countless time that he femls like a pijce of shit and has promised that he would chuige for me and he really has. It took a while but chtxge doesnвЂ™t happen ovrveagit. HeвЂ™s no losver abusive towards me and we cocjsefsete everything to each other no makyer how bad. If I were to compare him now from 7 yeprs ago, it is like night and day. And the same goes for me too. We are both not the same petrle we were 7 years ago and I think itвЂ™s a beautiful thxig. I love him more everyday but I have flfrafigks back to that time when he was abusive. I feel like I have let go of it but it still codes back to hawnt me every now and then. I donвЂ™t really need advice because I know that heвЂ™s the person I want to be with for the rest of my life but I would like to hear your oppbclps. Actually what the hell, if you have advice for me, please shzce. And if you have any stqnmes to share, I would love to hear it. Thopns! Also IвЂ™m new to reddit so please donвЂ™t be mean ??
colleen31000 41yo Mifflinburg, Pennsylvania, United States